Well Sunday night I had quite a defining moment that really put things in perspective. So... All weekend I had been working on this paper that was due yesterday (which went awesome by the way, God is good!) and Sunday night I was driving home from church and I don't really know what happened I just kind of got down in the dumps. Slowly but surely I starting sinking in self pity and scarfing down the lies that the enemy was feeding me without even thinking twice. "You're boring", "You aren't fun to be around", "You're going to bomb your paper presentation on Tuesday", and the list could go on. So there I am driving in tears just wallowing in my own self-centeredness (by the way, being selfish doesn't always mean being cocky or full of yourself, sometimes the most selfish thoughts can be ones that are about yourself in a negative light. You're still focused only on yourself...). So I pull into my neighborhood and I see him. ((There is a young man who lives a few houses down from me. I've seen him a few times before sitting in his driveway in his motorized wheelchair. I don't know if he is physically handicapped, mentally handicapped or both.)) He is riding down the neighborhood sidewalk with white earphones in his ears. He was rocking back and forth as he rolled along, singing with his mouth wide open. He looked so happy. Immediately I was brought to my knees and just lost it. How in the world do I have any reason at all to complain about anything!?! Riding down the sidewalk listening to his music is probably the most fun and freeing experience that this young man gets to have. For once he gets to feel independent and like a "normal" kid his age. This was a huge defining moment for me. My whole perspective changed and I saw schoolwork not as a burden but as a blessing that i even get to go to school! I stopped believing the enemies lies that I wasn't good enough, and thanked the Lord for legs to walk and for all that He's blessed me with. I have NO reason to complain or whine. thank you Lord for giving me this awe inspiring moment to put things in perspective.
Whoever reads this story deserves a hug. Sorry for the longness. lol
This is completely off subject but i read an article Sunday night and then Monday night in the girls group we talked about the sanctity of sex. Check out this article about the "death of sex" It's by a secular newspaper but it's pretty spot on. It talks about a public figure who unfortunately has a huge amount of impact on todays young people and what they think about sex. http://www.thesundaytimes.co.uk/sto/public/magazine/article389697.ece
Whew okay sorry for the long post. Hope everyone is having a great week!
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